My name is Harriet, and I have hope that all the bad things I've been through can be turned into something good.
我叫哈利特。我希望我所经历过的苦难能转化成正能量。
That's
why
I
want
to
make
this
video
and
tell
you
my
story.
所以我想借这个视频分享我的故事。
I
remember
having
a
negative
body
image
for
as
long
as
I've
had
memories.
我记得自己从记事以来就有着糟糕的身材。
When
I
was
around
three
years
old,
I
clearly
recall
my
father
picking
up
another
little
girl
and
saying
that
he
couldn't
pick
me
up
anymore
because
I
was
too
heavy.
在我三岁的时候，我清楚的记得我父亲抱起另一个小女孩，并说因为我太重了，他不再能抱起我了。
I
learned
what
a
calorie
was
at
age
five.
我5岁时，知道了卡路里。
I
grew
up
watching
my
mother
diet
and
exercise
obsessively,
which
led
me
to
stop
eating
breakfast
and
start
only
drinking
weight
loss
shakes
at
age
nine.
我看着母亲着魔地控制饮食和锻炼长大。这促使我在9岁时停止吃早餐并开始只喝减肥奶昔。
When
I
was
about
10
years
old,
I
started
to
feel
self-
conscious
about
my
weight.
在我10岁左右时，我开始注重自己的体重。
By
11,
I
was
restricting
my
eating
severely,
although
I
didn't
really
know
what
I
was
doing.
到了11岁，我开始严格地节食。尽管我并不知道自己在做什么。
I
didn't
yet
know
that
I
was
developing
an
eating
disorder.
我还没察觉到自己患了厌食症。
I
made
the
connection
between
eating
less
and
losing
weight
around
the
time
I
turned
13.
在13岁时，我把少吃东西和减肥联系到一起。
And
by
my
freshman
year
of
high
school,
I'd
started
exercising,
counting
calories,
purging,
and
restricting
to
the
point
of
hospitalization.
在我上初中的第一年我就开始锻炼，计算卡路里，吃泻药，限制饮食，以至到了最后住院的地步。
Now
I'm
17,
and
I've
spent
the
last
three
years
of
my
life
in
and
out
of
hospitals
and
recovery
centers,
because
I've
kept
convincing
everyone
else
around
me
that
I
was
well
enough
to
be
home,
even
when
I
was
really
just
learning
more
tricks
to
avoid
getting
caught.
现在我17岁了，过去的3年里，我反复地出入医院和康复中心，因为我不断地说服周围的人我已经康复到可以回家了。即使那只是我为避免被发现而耍的一些伎俩。
I lied to the people I loved most, and became someone completely unrecognizable.
我对我最爱的人说谎，成为了一个完全不同的人。
I
sacrificed
my
strongest
morals
to
protect
something
that
was
only
hurting
me
and
taking
everything
from
me.
我摒弃了我最强烈的道德感，换来的却是对自己的不断伤害，对所有一切的掠夺。
In
doing
so,
I've
missed
out
on
so
much
of
my
own
life.
因为这些，我的人生错过了很多东西。
I
don't
know
who
I
am
without
my
eating
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